so linwoods been preeeetttty cute lately. ive been sick i have kidney stones and saturday i was in the emergency room at 4 am. he came and visited me when i got home and just laied with me and was giving me cute kisses and watching football with me. we were just laying there and it was the cutestthing ever. i got up to go get some chapstick and he yelled at me and told me to stay in bed and hed get what egver i needed. he tucked me in and saig goodnight ;) hhah it was pretty dumb but it was cute anyway. we started talking about valentines day and he said hes taking me out to dinner which is a big deal becuase i dont think we've ever been out to dinner becuase he doesnt have a job and his parents only give him lunch moneyh and gas money. so yeah and hee said he was getting me a card and a teddy bear and chocolates ha im excited i dunno what to get him i wanna get him something really cute but im not sure what to get him. hmm. and he said he already knows what hes getting me for my birthday... which is in may. i told him that he should get me a cute necklace or something and hes like nope i already have it picked out and he ALWAYS gets me something from victorias secret becuased he knows im obsessed- i serisously go there about once a week and buy things- so im like uhh i bet its a victorias secret gift card, and hes like nope, and im like good, i dont want that hahhaha. i really want him to get me a cute peice of jelwerly.

annd he hasnt applied for college yet so im not sure if hes going to be going away so thats a good thing, i dont want him to go away i want him to stay here with me, he said hes been talking to college scouts and stuff but im pretty sure you still need to apply to the school inorder to be accepted he thinks he can just go talk to them and be able to go to the school. noppppe. but yeah i applied to stevenson university and im going to their open house on febuary 6th so hopefully i like it and if not then ill probally just go to community college for my first two years.

i think my parents might be getting a divorce, theyve been really talking about it alot lately so i started picking up hours at work just incase i have to help my mom pay for rent or something becasue she doesnt even have a job so0 that wouldnt be good if we didnt have anywhere to live. i dont knbow the past couple of weeks have been pretty hetic in my life i havent really been talkking to my dad becuase i blew off his christmas party on and never went to his day after christmas party either and  i called him today and he was pretty pissed about it,. oh well he'll get over it.

yeah my fingers hurt from typing, cuzs i just wrote this all in about 3 minutes. so theres procally alot of spelling errors sorry. but yeah im done. ;) peace.

i hate not having friends. this is dumb as shit.

my "friends" go places with out me. it makes me so mad.

i dont think i like linwood as much as i thought i did.

i miss matt.

matt probally wouldnt even give me a second chance. this is dumb.

i probally still wouldnt be happy with matt because he talks to way to many girls for me to handle.

im not as happy with linwood as i thought id be. i hope i made the right choice to go back with linwood instead of start something with matt.

i hate making decisions. i wish someone made it for me. i wish someone could look into the future and tell me what happens and tell me what boy to choose.

i saw a commericial for a movie called dear john. its based on a book by nicholas sparks. it looks really good. i think im going to go to the libiary and get it.

my stomach hurts. this stupid nuva ring birthcontrol is making me spot. ive been bleeding for like 2 weeks now. its rediculious.